I've been wondering about a few things lately. I cannot understand what keeps guys from ever asking me out, when I do not look awful; I actually have been asked by a few people if I am a model.
I've decided it has to be my fiery personality, or maybe just the fact that I'm not really on their level. I watched a girl get hit on at my work yesterday, and I couldn't understand why these guys were hitting on her when I never get asked for my number anymore. I examined this girl, but there really is nothing about her that I could immediately see that was so much better than me. She was a nice girl, don't get me wrong. I like being around her, but she was average in looks, about 40 pounds overweight, she wore these really thick glasses, and she had braces. The guys were not even hitting on her in a mean or really rude way like guys usually hit on me when they hit on me.
When guys hit on me, they usually insinuate something along the lines of me being a prostitute (I'm a virgin who has not done anything past kissing with tongue at 17). I do not dress without any modesty either (I do wear fitting jeans, but I do not ever have my bust hanging out of my shirt, or wear leggings with nothing over them), leading me to be quite confused. I'm not stupid, I have very little acne, and have an hourglass figure at being 120 pounds at 5ft 2, with larger hips than bust, but not having a flat chest either. I'm almost my ideal person, and I can't figure out what I have to do to find a male that will actually ask me out.
I'm starting to wonder if my confidence level is starting to drown or something. I don't know what else it could be, but this is starting to get insanely annoying, like I can't win for losing. The last guy I was interested in never ended up calling me, even when he acted like he was interested and I knew he was single. The guy before that lead me on a wild goose chase when he had a girlfriend. The guy in between was one date that was acting more interested in talking to the girl next to me, or bragging about the fact he had a date with me instead of talking to me on the "date." The guy before that was only interested in a lay, so where are all the good guys?
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