Surviving Summer

Many of the things people will tell you about college has nothing to do with what goes on during the summers.  Summers for the people trying to finance their own college courses usually are along the lines of work, work, and more work; but I have not been able to find that.  I originally was going to do a summer job along with working at Bojangles, but so far no one has called me back for jobs, in my small town, jobs are scarce.  No one really has any extra places for people under the age of 18 because one mistakenly believes that 18 year olds are more likely to have more bills to pay.  News Flash: not everyone graduates high school at 18, some people have to make a living at 17.  There should be exceptions for that, but there's not. 

I was hoping to take a summer course called Math 161, also known as College Algebra.  When I tried signing up for the course, it would not let me in.  I tried contacting my academic advisers (I have two) but they were not able to get me in and neither was the top counselor.  I had the SAT scores to get into the course, but the computer would not allow me to sign up.  I am slightly regretful about that, but not entirely.  I wanted to get the class over with, but to be honest I hate math so much I get anxiety attacks when I have to take math tests.  Nothing cures them, I highly believe that it is contributing to a growing amount of learned helplessness as far as math goes and is something that getting a doctor's note should get me out of.  In the end, it also makes no sense as I am planning a major along the lines of an English major or a Foreign language major.  Neither of these makes any sense as to why there should be any math past simple math involved.

As far as summer goes, I am trying to find something fun to do, but I just find myself wishing something more interesting would happen or I could just quit my job at Bojangles.  My job at Bojangles seems to be the only thing motivating me now as far as college goes however, seeing as I cannot stand the fact that a power-hungry idiot gets to have complete and utter power over me, while there's nothing I can do about it.  I had enough of that at my last job.